It appears that my worst nightmare may well be true. Yep, fibroids, which killed my baby in 2002 and I had surgery to remove, later that year may well have grown back. I’ve been in denial for about a year about them, because this time they’re behaving differently. Last time they were subserosal, that is, in the uterine wall, and while they hurt like a SOB, I didn’t have abnormal bleeding. In fact, despite all my various and sundry fertility problems, I’ve been as regular as a clock until last year. I suspect that this time they’re submucosal, that is, in the uterus itself. And yes, this time I’ve got bleeding. Crazy bleeding. My Midol week has turned into a Midol month and then some.
I’ve been in denial for a minute, because I really don’t want to deal with this right now. For one thing, it’s going to cost a grip, and if you’ve been reading this blog, you know I don’t have health insurance. On the other hand, I can’t continue bleeding this way either. I’ve had to give up my exercise routine because I’m literally light-headed and dizzy much of the time. I do skull-crushers for my triceps. It would be a shame for that colorful term to become a reality.
I’m going to see a gyno on Tuesday. I had planned to return to my gyno in Huntsville, but with these type issues going on, I thought it would be prudent to find someone here. I’ve heard good things about her, but man, she’s expensive. I thought about going to a clinic, but my gynecological history is crazy complicated and I think I need someone who’s very sharp, so I’ll just have to pony up the cash.
I’m saying all this to say that if in the coming weeks I sound crazier than usual, just keep in mind that I’ve more or less been bleeding since March 23. If you believe in a deity of any kind, or if you don’t, please pray for me. I’m not ashamed to admit, I’m scared to death.
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I will definitely keep you in my prayers lady!
I’ve been following your (always funny, insightful, and on-point) comments on other blogs for some time now, and I’ve recently become a reader of your blog. I’m so sorry to hear about your recent health challenges—fibroids are a scourge that affect too many African-American women. I’m glad to hear that you’re seeking the best possible care for yourself, in spite of the insurance situation. Please know that you will absolutely be in my thoughts and prayers.
You’re in my prayers as well. Hope the appointment goes well.